Dear diary,
Last weekend I started watching 10th Doctor for the first time. For several months I couldn’t do it because Nine’s death hit really hard on me. “Parting of the ways” made me cry for a week.. and it took a lot of time to put myself together. It was quite strange because I do not remember when was the last time a simple TV-series had such an impact on me.
Anyway. I had a lot of free time on Sunday and decided to watch some Who and give 10th Doctor a chance to impress me. So I watched four episodes in a row (including Christmas Special). And what can I say? Tennant is nice and funny. But his Doctor is a completely new person! And this is OK with me. But is it so hard to watch him and Rose now…
It is like he remembers that previous Doctor loved her very-very much and that she is very a kind, caring, etc. BUT this doesn’t make him feel the same way about her. He is completely new and he is discovering himself.. his new character and his new feelings. He likes Rose… and this is it. I do not see anything more in his eyes and attitude. Only sometimes there is like a glimpse of old him and it feels for a moment that deep down Nine is still alive inside of him. But then it’s gone.
And Rose. She loves her Doctor so much! The thought of his death will kill destroy her – so when she understands that it is still a Time Lord in front of her, a Time Lord with all the memories of her and a Doctor – she doesn’t want to let go. She convinces herself that it is still her Doctor and loves him with all her heart. And who will judge her? Sometimes even a glimpse of a loved one is enough.
Maybe I’m totally wrong. But this is how I see the beginning of season two and it makes my heart hurting again. When I was finished with the episodes I spent an evening on youtube watching Nine over and over again. I miss him so much… and Ten doesn’t make it any better. I’m not sure that I will be able to continue watching him.
